#8

Yesterday didn't have lunch. I had gastric pain even when I ate dinner later, and I had to take my sis's gastric pills. Hating medicine more and more now. I never liked it, only eating it when I have to.

Sometimes I wonder if I should regret my actions of the past. I lost countless numbers of friends, but also made some of the best and most fun friends (idek my English anymore excuse me for that)... Either way I won't look back at it anymore, cause there's just no point in crying over spilt hot chocolate (because I don't like milk).

I didn't drink coffee today, because I think my body needs to stop relying on that stuff to keep awake. Anyway it's like the last 2nd day of school, who gives a fuck any more really? June holidays are just going to be fun fun fun and then last minute mugging...though I think I may just take my studies for real (though I don't know how long it can last..).

Mental illnesses are really tiring. It just kills you slowly if you don't recover, that's what I feel from what I've read from Instagram. I want to die though I feel alright and okay...Debbie at it again.

I don't know what else to say maybe tonight I shan't have my medication and see what happens. But I really don't want to feel moody. But I am moody now. I don't know. But I felt slightly better when I realised that I helped my friends so much, when they needed it. A few words of kindness, like I love you and stay strong can help someone know that in this world, there are still people who genuinely care about them.

I'm probably tired which caused my moodiness. And when I'm moody it isn't even like how I am usually, I'll just keep to myself...though now I try to make myself feel better.

I have a dayre account, but I don't know if it is better to blog or to dayre because dayre is definitely more convenient. But I think I'll stick to blogs for now.

Stay strong, lovelies ♡ all of you are worth it.