1st June, and my hypersomniac self is at work today. I slept like 14.5 hours and I still feel sleepy. I don't know what to feel for this because it is obviously a sign that I'd relapse but I don't want it to come, but I don't do anything to stop it. And I feel worse when I see those girls with ednos and they are trying their hardest to beat their brains to not relapse, and here is me, sleeping all the time and not even trying to break out of the cycle. I've even lost hopes for recovering from deb, since I'm always so reliant on the fucking anti-depressants. I can see myself submitting to the medicines and being a hopeless bitch that relies on others for help. I don't know anymore, maybe I ought to sleep this out or something. If that even works. Stay strong lovelies, don't lose hope like me.
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