I don't know why so many people expect so much from me, especially my father. Just because I am that little bit smarter than my sister, he expects me to score. He even (through my mother) tells me that if I get 3As for my subjects (3H2, 2H1), then he will pay for my braces, which is like around SGD4k...yet he offers to pay for my sister's braces.
This is just so shitty. And when you say that you are being pressured upon, parents will say 'Oh no, I didn't pressure you, I am okay with your results, etc' that sort of bs. I cannot even, seriously. If wanting me to get 3 grade As to reward me, that in itself is an expectation.
And in reality, their delusions are overly colourful.
And they like to impose their colourful delusions on their children. Though some parts of them do want us to do well, which is reasonable, I don't believe in imposing overly unrealistic and far-fetched hopes onto children.
Probably that is why I have depression. I have always thought where the roots could be, and I realised, I had never been truly happy after I started my secondary school days. Secondary school, with the drama of friends and being locked up at home, plus puberty and other bs, destroys a person like me who is values freedom and everything else. And with a pragmatic society that values papers over anything else, and the availability of education, the stress of competing against peers has increased even more compared to the last 2 decades. I wouldn't even surprised if there is a rise in the number of mental illnesses diagnosed.
I do realise that my rants are pretty subjected to my POV, and not everybody would concur to it. But well, this is a blog for a reason.
Thanks for reading, lovelies, and stay strong ♡
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