I've become an escapist. Escaping from the reality I am supposed to face. Today, I had a horrible wake up yell by my parent. I couldn't stop the tears from flowing until around 0720. I guess I have been taking everything for granted. I feel lost. Because I genuinely do not want to go to school due to the stress that I get, but I have to, in this heartless society that seeks for mere qualifications that are just pieces of paper stating your IQ.
Today he asked me when was I going to stop escaping reality. Today he asked me when was I going to stop abusing my ability to do whatever I want. Today, he asked me if I really wanted to study, because then I can always go to work and lessen his burden. Maybe that is what I want.
I don't know myself anymore. I've changed so much that I don't understand me. Just when I thought I was making a turn for the better, God comes in and screws things up like I am a sickening joke created by my parents.
Mental illnesses are horrible.
School is starting, will post again.
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