Tired and sick of life.
Sometimes I wonder why am I suffering from all the mental illnesses I have. Sometimes I wish to cut open my head and smash my brain to bits. I rather die than feel all these pain. I hate feeling depressed - it's like being sad and lonely for all the wrong reasons in this world.
Many would say that I should appreciate what I have, but I rather be a farmer or just lead a simple life. Be as far away from this fucked up piece of society as possible. Why do I hate this society? I guess I can reason it out.
1) skinny = beauty, fat is a sin.
That is what I see. Photoshop done on models. Girls at the age of 12 obsessing over the size of their waist, how flat their tummy is. People going for liposuction not because their health is in jeopardy, but because they want to wear those size 0 clothes. And to be skinny, those who cannot pay for liposuction...resort to other means: puking, starving what not. In school, I saw this boy restricting himself to 1000kcals per day. Just, what the fuck.
2) Depression is not even existent, it is just you thinking too much.
This stereotype is too damn widespread. Apparently a low mood triggered by lack of some chemicals in the body is a 'thinking too much' syndrome. I don't know man, maybe people with depression cut themselves even though it hurts for fun, right? They jump off the building because they have nothing better to do right? I don't know man.
...actually my brain is quite dead at this hour haha. It's damn hot here and I'm sweating and gained weight again, can feel the spare tyres accumulating around my waist...(ironic eh), but either ways just gonna let the days go by how they go, and next time, lovelies.
♡ stay strong ! ♡
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